March 21st

11:55pm

Went to go see creed but the speaker wouldn’t turn off and it was bothering the other patrons so I had to leave. I couldn’t hear it but the people who control the robot chip were speaking over my broadcasted thoughts as well as the film.

Broadcasted thoughts the entire duration:
Turn off the speaker
Turn off the podcast
Turn it off (it referring to the speaker, not myself)
This is bullying
Stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop stop
Let me enjoy the movie
Let the other patrons enjoy the movie

Etc.

Eventually I had to leave because the other patrons kept looking at me and grumbling going “oh” and coughing. I got very anxious because of how annoyed they were. When I got up to leave a woman even said “good”. That is so humiliating since I didn’t open my mouth the entire film. It’s hurtful to be basically booed out for nothing I am in control of.

Not the first time a situation like this has happened but I thought I’d jot this one down since I had to leave the film right after the title sequence. Didn’t particularly want to see that film but it seemed better than the alternatives which were like horror sequels.

I try and stay optimistic that one day I will be free from this mysterious fascist technology but I am becoming more and more bitter each day that I have to isolate myself from even a movie theater. It’s been almost a year, 5 months of pastaplanet, and almost 3 months of the technology methodical awareness. When I asked my housemates if it got worse after I became aware of the technology each one said yes. Yes yes yup definitely yes. My insecurity about thinking the worst thing has become to drastic that I only have relief when I am alone which is unhealthy. I am naturally a very social and amicable person who listens and shows up to other people’s performances and doesn’t want attention on myself. This is the worst year of my life.

If I look at the actually good thing about this experience I had a enjoyable short conversation with the guy that works there who said that they’re always hiring and told me about how he became manager. I told him I have a disorder Said sorry to him on the way out and mentioned fascism lol. He was jovial and very friendly. The tickets were also very affordable but I’m not sure how much they were.
Also, now I get to eat rice and almonds in my best western room! Also, i had a massage today from a nice lady who kneaded out the jumbled clumps of fibers I can’t reach. I’m a mess.